Staring into space today locked in my
own time capsule I usually humm to myself where does the time go. It
creeps up on us in a magnifying proportion, but really it is always
at the same pace it is just the way perceive time. Right now, time
is forever. The waiting game, not for me but for my husband's
family.
Being a mum and wanting to balance my
social and my work life is always a tedious task, but when it is
family everything stops, it is like instead of drifting with the
current of the sea, metaphorically meaning time we all of a sudden
tread water and decide if we are to swim to shore, the island or
boat. We just stay stagnant in time.
Spring Carnival is undoubtedly my most
chaotic yet sociable and silly season of year, but right now it seems
I am being tested with delegation tasks and how I cope under
pressure. I am not special and I am not a victim it is just a matter
of hitting 40 and the days of going looking for a partner and
settling down in your 20s and discovering who you are in your 30s is
over and now you play the cards you are dealt in life.
You have children and no one is
throwing you a life raft, you are holding the children above the
water with you kicking as hard as you can to weather the storm so the
children are ok, sooner or later you feel you are in control of the
children and then you are thrown the curve balls of sickness with
yourself with your body not functioning like it once did and then the
support that you give to your family.
Many times people say, “I don't know
how you do it!”.
The answer is, “We don't do it, We
just keep going.”.
What choice do we have?? None! You
leave because you cannot support others?? No!
Right now, I sit and I wait for the
phone calls that many have been through before, that I am going
through now and others will go through later on. This is living and
rounding myself and others into what makes us who we are today. I
love my fashion and it is a hobby, passion and living, but when all
is said and done, it is just like being dedicated to a car, garden or
whatever your hobby is.
I thank people for reading my funny
little editors blog that seem to keep people amused. Allot has no
meaning, just the way I feel and where I am going and developing. I
am adoring the opportunity to blog and to read others. We have our
own stories, our own trials. I love my fashion, but if you know me,
you know there is more to me than fashion.
Meanwhile Robots and Fashion, we are
only human.
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